Healing the wounds.. Part 7

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               She sat alone in the balcony on a rocking chair. A chaos of thoughts in her mind.. Ashish ditching her this way was a blow to her. However much she was hurt, but something deep inside her was relieved. She didn't know what it was, it was ceasing her tears. The relation was not complete. Something lacked in it. She had come to terms with the fact that it was not she who had done anything wrong and she had to let him go. What bothered her was, when she thought she loved Ashish all this time, why this feeling of relief on his separation. She wondered if the shock had rendered her mentally damaged....
               He watched her as she rocked herself slowly.. Deep in her own thoughts and expressionless. It had been sometime he was sitting in her room. 2 weeks had gone by since he realised his feelings for her. She was her usual self with everyone around, but in those moments of solitude, her face spoke of a melancholy unknown to him. He wanted her to snap out of it, but there was no way he could speed up things.
              Anandita entered the room. She noticed Prem staring intensely and yet with apparant affection for Ashna.. Her sister, oblivious to his presence had fallen off to sleep..
              "Didn't you tell her you are here?" she asked.
Suddenly he panicked. He was so intently observing her, he hadn't even realised Anandita coming into the room.
             "Ah.. no.. she was sort of busy in her thoughts..so.." he thought of a reason to explain.
"So you thought of day-dreaming too?" she giggled. He couldn't help thinking, they giggle the same way!
            "I understand Prem.. don't bother explaining. She is taking her time. If you ask me, I am happy she is no longer with Ashish. They never really had any serious relation. I mean it's not like it was casual for her or something. But they have spent better part of their affair, apart. He never seemed right to me. Never made an effort to maintain the relation.."
             He listened to her with rapt attention. She was telling things he wanted to know but couldn't ask Ashna.
            "I want her to be happy Anandita.. not this way.." He didn't know why, but he shared it with her.
  She smiled.
             "I have an idea.." she said.
       They talked for sometime and then decided to wake up Ashna..

She woke up with a start.. A few strands of hair stroking her cheeks.. God! she is soo beautiful he thought.
           "Oh Prem! you didn't tell me you would be coming!" she exclaimed.
           "Aunty called me for lunch.. I thought you would be knowing." he said.
           "You two best friends never tell me anything." she complained.
           "Okay lets have lunch now." Anandita said.

They would discuss their plan later in detail. They would include Ashna's and Prem's parents too. He was waiting for Anandita's idea to work for Ashna..
         
           IT was 11 PM..
Ashna sat with her crimson colored diary.. It had been long since she had written anything.. That day she wrote out her pain.. Her tears.. She went across the previous pages and cried out some more.. She then kept it aside and went to sleep...
          Anandita pretended to be asleep through all this... She thought... The wound to her self-esteem has filled up.. It only needs a healing touch of love... Soon she will have her cheerful Ashna back...



(to be continued)

Revelation ... Part 6

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          The presentation was done.. The results were to be declared today.. He was waiting for her to come to college. It had been a week since they had stopped being at each other's place. He missed her very much..
          It was already 11 o'clock and results were put up on the website.. He wanted to check it with her.. She was nowhere to be seen. He went over and checked the result and let out a happy smile.. They had won it!
         He called her, but she didn't pick up his phone. He looked for her all over the college but could not find her. Finally he went to one more place where the probability of finding her was the least.. THE LIBRARY..
         There she was..sitting in the farthest corner all alone.. He knew something was wrong.. He went near her..
        "Ashna.. what happened..Any problem?" he asked her softly as he sat beside her.
        She looked at him and the sight broke his heart..
Her eyes were swollen because of her long crying.. Her face had turned red.. She looked so shattered.
        "Prem... Prem... " she said between her soft sobs.. She could hardly breathe..
        "Ashna.. Listen dear.. Let's move out of here.. It's not the right place to talk.. "
       She shut her eyes and let out few more tears...
He gently wiped her tears and held her lightly, just giving her support to stand up.. They walked out of the library and  he took her to the neighboring garden. When she appeared a little more calm, he asked.
        "What happened dear? Did anyone hurt you?"
Her tears rolled down uncontrollably.. "He hurt me Prem.."
He felt something break inside him..
"Who?"
"Ashish.. He says he doesn't want me in his life anymore..."
He didn't know what to say.. He didn't even know who Ashish was.. As if sensing his doubts she said, "Ashish.. I have known him since school.. We were in love since last two years.. He went away to another city for his engineering last year.. You know that day when we were working, he called me to say he couldn't meet me. He had been away for one year and when he is in city he didn't want to meet me!"

He let her speak..

" You know what, I saw him yesterday with another girl. I confronted him and he says I doubt him! He even talked foul about my character.. Saying I m all day with boys... What have I done to deserve this? He broke my heart and he insulted me.. I feel so cheap.. " She broke down..

He couldn't understand how anyone could do it to someone like her..

"Hey Ashna.. you are not cheap.. He is cheap.. He is a loser if he couldn't value you.. You just don't deserve someone like him.. It's not your fault.. "

She looked at him..

"What's wrong in me Prem? Why do I always get hurt?"

"There's nothing wrong with you.. You are just better than others. You are the most beautiful person I have met. Not just superficially , but you have a beautiful soul.. You deserve the best.. " He spoke out everything buried in his heart.

"Really Prem?" she asked him innocently..

He just wanted to hug her close...

"Yes, really.. what  do you say? yeah God Promise" he replied in a kid's tone..

"hihihi" she giggled and gave him a hug.. She held onto to him for sometime and said, "You know what, it really sounds cute."

That was the moment he knew she was "his girl"... He would keep her happy always...

"Hey I have something for you.. Here.." He gave her a "Fruit n Nut"..

"What's the occasion?" she asked grabbing the chocolate..

"We won the poster presentation." He said.

The gleam in her eyes.. He would do another 1000000 presentations and win them for that gleam..

"Wow!! So that calls for a dinner party tonight at my home."

"Do you even know to boil eggs?" he bantered.

"You don't worry.. Your friend, that is my Mom will take care of it.. You just reach on time. Will message you the time later."

"Should I drop you home?" he offered.

"What? Like you bought the BEST bus or what?" she joked back..

"Nope. Got dad's car.. Had to take it for servicing.."

"Oh great. Let's go then. I m done with my classes."

Now that he knew she was the one... He was already thinking about that right moment to tell her.. Right now she was already nursing her broken heart.. This was not the right time.. He had to wait for a more appropriate time...


 
(to be continued)

Getting familiar.. Part 5

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   They reached her home. All through the way, she was chattering all about her family. He gave her a patient listening only interrupting to say, Accha.. hmmm.. ok.. Her mom opened the door and before she could ask anything Ashna started her story, " Mom this is Prem.. My senior in college and now my friend. we are going to do presentation. So we will be dropping home early from college to complete at our place ok.. " It was more of information than permission. What could her mom say?
        She turned to Prem.
        "Prem let's go to my room. All my stuff is there."
        "Ashna let him atleast sit for a while. Wait I will get you both something to eat. Then start your work."

He was busy looking at a wall in her house, having all their family pictures framed. Most of the pictures featured Ashna and other girl he guessed was her sister. Her house was vibrant with many colors. He loved her house at first sight. Something peaceful about it.
        She entered her room. She shouted at once.."Deeee deeee.... come here quick"
Her sister was in another room. Her name was Anandita.

"What is it Ashna. Why are you raising your voice so much?" she asked her irritatingly. She had been engrossed in her book.

"Why did you not clean up the room? See the whole bed is strewn with my clothes and your books. Look at the table!! Everything is a mess." she was getting so nervous

"What is new in that? Isn't that how you leave it? If not for me cleaning the room, it's worse than a cowshed." She laughed over her.

"Di didn't you see we have my friend over at our place. What would he think?" she asked.

"Oh!!! Crisis!!! Shut the door and let;s get started.

They both quickly collected their things and dumped it in the respective drawers. It had taken a good 20 minutes when Ashna realised..

"Oh shit Di.. He is all alone outside. I completely forgot. How mannerless of me. Mom is in kitchen too."

"Go then. I will arrange the rest."

Ashna went into the hall, all geared up with her apologies for ditching him alone..

" Look at this. This is Ashna when she was just 2 years old. You know what she had done? She brushed her hand over the blades of her father's razor and came running to me. I picked her up and then she realised we were taking a family photo so she posed quite cheerfully. It was only later when we realised her fingers were bleeding. When we asked why she did it, she replied.. "Ma the blade was soo shiny!!! I thought it would be good to touch . But it hurt."

He laughed looking at her picture. There were few others in which she was pulling her sister's plate. One in which she was feeding her sister.. Cute family pictures. He had been busy talking to her Mom. She was a cheerful and friendly person.

Ashna looked at her Mom and Prem. They were bantering over her. She smiled at how easily he had befriended her mom. Her Mom was clearly taken by his nature.. But she faked to take offence and said,
"Mom , Prem enough of laughing over me. Prem let's start the work please."
"Sure.." He joined her in her room. Her sister was there too. They all began the work..

A week had passed. They had become regular at each others house. Prem's Mom loved Ashna.. Well his mom always did want a daughter and she adored Ashna like one.. Prem had almost fit into Ashna's family.

Often her father would say, "Look at Prem, he is such a gentle and good guy and look at your other friends.. Fashion retards.. Prem is the most decent friend you have." Ashna would always be proud of her friend but didn't show it.

    One such afternoon, they were working together when she got a call on her cell phone. She walked away towards the balcony. Prem couldn't stop wondering who it was.. He felt it would be like poking his nose into her life.. But he was really curious..

    When she returned, she was low. She didn't speak much. They completed their work soon. They had just one day of work and the presentation would be done.. He felt sad.. He genuinely liked her company. She was so honest, so cheerful and accepting. He had never met anyone like her..
    Ashna was upset after the call.. She hadn't expected it.. She wondered what Prem would be thinking about her strange behavior. He was a good guy so maybe he wouldn't judge her.. She felt thankful for having one friend who was as real as he looked..
    Prem was waiting for her to say something.. But she didn't.. Her silence was making him impatient... Why was he feeling so much for her... Had he developed something more than friendship for her?



To be continued.

Becoming Friends.. Part 4

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           He couldn't concentrate on anything.. He had been so selfish! He had to apologize.. for making her cry..
                He kept looking out for her all through the day. He was getting restless to see her.
   He saw her during the break.. As usual with lot of people surrounding her.. How could he approach her?
               She looked at him once but not for long..
He thought about how to talk to her. He didn't want to make a fool of himself before her friends.. Then he remembered she had called him last night. He searched her number and texted her.. Then begun the wait..

              She was in a large group of friends yet so alone. She was worried about her grandma.. She didn't mention about that to anyone but him.. She wanted to be home soon. Her phone beeped.. It was a text message from Prem..
             "Hey I m really sorry.. I have been such a jerk. Would you still want to work with me? "
She looked up at him and gave him a smile.. He was a jerk but atleast he was true about it..
              She went upto him..
"Hey that's okay.. But don't ever shout aloud at me okay... I cant bear it.. " She said quite sweetly..
             Oh! I would not even think of ever hurting you again, he thought to himself..
"ok I will keep that in mind.. How's your Grandma now?" he asked.
"Hmm she's ok... " Her expression changed... Grim..
"Hey if you don't want to work soon it's okay. We will start later. I have done the basic study anyway." he offered to help.
"Nah.. that's fine. We will start today?" she asked.
"Hmm if you want. "
"okay cool.. my place then!" she chirped.
He was amused how she could give so many expression within a moment!
"Where do you stay?" he asked.
"Borivali... near Don Bosco." she replied.
"Okay that's hardly 10 minutes from my place."
"Hey wow.. We can go together now then. What say?" she was thrilled.
"Okay." He hesitated a bit.
"Hey don't worry. Mom and my sis are at home! " she guessed his hesitance and winked.
"I have something for you. Here." He gave her.
"Ohh!! Chocolate!! That too "fruit n nut" I love!" she was just short of jumping with joy.
"To say sorry" he shied.
"Aww that's so sweet. Friends?" she asked.
"Friends" he winked back ... Did he just wink at her? What was happening to him? He was getting so different! He had never ever said sorry to someone with a chocolate. Never winked childishly! He should have known then, this girl was going to change a lot in his life.



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Judgement or joke?

       This ain't related to the story I m doing now! But what is this thing about "Rapture" and "Judgement day" going on with everyone? I mean everyone is talking about it! Facebook is full of statuses on it!
        Here is all about it http://www.cbc.ca/news/world/story/2011/05/20/judgement-day.html .. I mean it's ridiculous! What have these believers done other than believing?? Does that mean all people of other beliefs deserve to be vanquished??
       I know certain people from this belief (very closely) who have done nothing in life but wait for the judgement so that they would be taken into another world where they would be given all joys! What nonsense! What is the whole point of coming into this world then? Just to believe in the Judgement day??
      If the world has to end, it will end. One can do nothing about it! What could the people killed in Tsunami do anyway? One can't fastforward life just because its going to end!
      As for these believers I feel nothing but pity! Why would God protect someone who would go around rejoicing the fact that "they are going to be saved" while all others perish! I have never heard of a more sadistic belief!
      As for those who are non-believers there is no need to panic.. The world is not going to wait for you to live your life and then end. You could die now walking on the street in some mad accident. So it has got nothing to you being "non-believers". If someone is still scared, here's my solution..
      CALL UP EVERYONE YOU CARE FOR AND SAY "I CARE AND LOVE YOU. I CHERISH YOUR PART IN MY LIFE"
       CALL UP ALL THOSE YOU HAVE HURT AND SAY "I M SORRY TO HURT YOU. I SHOULD HAVE BEEN MORE SENSITIVE"
       If the world is ending.. you have done what you could have..
If it doesn't, you have a bonus of good relations!!
     

P.S: I m a believer .. believer in God and not the Judgement day. I would rather die with my people than be given partial treatment and saved in other world.

The clash.. Part 3

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               He accepted her request on facebook.. Her name was "DollPrincess".. He had this image of her still playing "house house" with dolls and laughed it aside.. He sat with his book and started doing his research on the internet.
              He got a chat from her..
             "Hey Prem"
              "Hi.. what time tomorrow we start?"
       He waited for about half an hour but there was no reply. He had to start tomorrow anyway.. This girl clearly wasn't helping things. He logged out and went to sleep.
               Next day he collected all material from the college and went home early so that he could work in peace.
               It was weekend so he had ample time for himself. He shut off all contact and was engrossed with his work.
               Sunday night when he checked his mobile.. There were 8 missed calls from Ashna.. He thought if he should call her but decided against it..
               Monday morning when he reached college, she was already waiting for him at the gate.
"Hey Prem, Atul told me you started working on the presentation. What's your problem? couldn't you inform me?"

"Hello Miss!! I did ask you on facebook.Waited for half an hour for your reply. If you don't have the courtesy to reply back, why should I bother waiting for you? I have other work too and I want to get over with this presentation."

"That is so rude! I have never seen anyone as selfish as you." Her eyes blazed with rage. She was turning red.

"I am not selfish. You are. You just want to have fun and make me do everything. Well cool. I don't want anything to do with you. Carry on your thing." He too was raising his voice now. A few passerby started staring at them. That alarmed him.

She lowered her voice.
"You know what I am done with this thing too. I was a fool to think you would teach me a few things. People like  you just work for themselves. You carry Mr Genius." Her expression now softened from anger to hurt.

He looked at her eyes and saw a tear fill up her eyes. She looked aside.

"Ok Prem.. Next time around if someone doesn't reply back to you, it doesn't mean that person is busy chatting with someone else. That person's grandma could have had a accident and that person could be needed to go leaving everything back. "

She walked in haste. Her hair bouncing with her every step. He watched her wipe away her tear carefully. She was so sensitive..

He felt bad for saying such harsh things for her..for misunderstanding her. He went back to his class with a heavy heart...



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First talk Part 2

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         She was a pretty girl.. fully of life and fun..always flashing smiles , talking to everyone around her and always surrounded by people..  Who would not like to have her amongst them?
         She stood there giving him one of her innocent grins and he was taken over.. Ofcourse, not "his girl" type.. but she had the charm he had to admit..
         "Hey Prem! You are my partner!! wow!! We are gonna rock this thing! " she was so excited.
He didn't know what to say to that..
         "Yeah ..ok" he replied back.
She looked at him questioningly and her eyes asked him a thousand queries..
         "What ok? there is a problem... " she said in a softer tone..
           "What is it Ashna?" He asked.
          "I don't know crap about this poster presentation thing" she said with a smile..
He could not help but give her a smile.. She was so childish !
           "Don't worry..that's what I m for. You just have to help me and learn ok?" He explained her like he would explain a 5 yr old.
           "Wow that is cool.. I will learn everything! " she got back to her jolly mood.
           "Hey you are there on facebook na?" she asked.
           "Yes I m.. "
           "Ok.. add me on facebook.. I will send you a request. My name on fb is.. forget it .. You will see my pic and know " she gave him a naughty smile..
           He wondered what  it was all about when she walked downstairs.. He had to get the books for his presentation.. After all he was the "BRAIN" in this "beauty with brains" combo..

A little bit about our bubbly Ashna..
She was once a chubby Ashna.. Dolly they called her.. chubby cheeks but with a dimple on her cheek.. Beautiful dark eyes sparkling with possibilities. Luscious pink lips.. She was a natural beauty.. Someone called our doll "fat" once and that someone never had a chance to say that again... She lost her baby fat.. That is Ashna.. Just needs that one thing to push her to extreme.. Spends the better half of her day socializing (both real and virtual) and the latter half with her other pursuits.. Writing being one of them.. Writes for herself.. No one ever gets a peek into her diary.. Listens to songs... Goes to sleep 9/10 times chatting to someone at night..

Somethings about Ashna no one knows..
She hates being called "Ash".. Loves chocolates. Independent but still hugs her teddy when alone.. Loves reading.. anything and everything.. Loves romantic stories... Likes playing with toddlers.. Children are the apple of her eyes.. Adores elder sister... Doesn't talk much with her parents... Something that's got to do with her sister being her best friend.. Joy of her house... Easily makes friends and maintains contacts well...
Well that is all about her for the timebeing.. Rest you will come to know in the coming parts... :)

(to be continued)